Sunday, February 6, 2011

背叛的感受

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信任 一夜之间就毁了
以为给对方自由是彼此会快乐的方式
可是我错了 思想的不同 让彼此在一起都觉得辛苦

为何有些人觉得游戏中所做的一切都可以被原谅?
做的同时 为何不想想自己是什么身份 有个人会心碎

重点是 事情发生了 却还理直气壮 并觉得自己没有错
反而说我太敏感 说一切只是游戏
这样的行为是你们可以当游戏玩的吗
那群朋友在我心中的印象也全毁了 不再相信你们
为什么女生也要玩呢 怎么那么不爱护自己?
男人只是为了吃豆腐 然后觉得很好玩
女人呢?为了什么而玩?难道她们自己也喜欢被吃豆腐吗?
我不明白。如果有一天我跟你们的男朋友发生事情
你会怎么想?有想过我的感受吗?还当我是朋友吗?

跟我男朋友做那些事情 我以后该怎么面对你们 最好不要让我看到你们
what's the point of playing such a meaningless game?
每次说自己成熟 说我小孩子
你这样的行为更让我觉得你还没长大 还没玩够
几时才可以稳重一些?好好找工作吧!

想法不同 让彼此都很辛苦 是什么让我们坚持到现在?
是爱?还是只是一种需要?连我自己也不知道答案。
感觉就好像在遇到更适合的人之前两人在一起看看
是真的这样吗?在一起的感觉呢?

我给了很多的自由 到头来得到的不是他珍惜我的好
而是让他做了让我伤心的事 而他却一点歉意也没有
我难过 是因为他在我的心目中已经把形象给毁了
彼此之间好不容易建立起来的信任 也毁于一旦
我无法再相信他给我的爱情 他也无法给我承诺
他说无法保证以后不会再重犯
听到这句话的时候 我的心碎得没有残留
保证不做那些背叛我的事情 有这么难吗?
那种游戏有多么重要?看到我心痛伤心都还是坚持吗?
爱情 为什么要存在 我的真名天子到底又在哪里

Thursday, September 30, 2010

这里 已经不一样了

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今天 曾经让我很信任的朋友 又让我失望了
现在留在这个地方的感觉跟以前完全不同
越来越有相依为命的感觉

大家都是“一家人” 为何要分开坐?
恕我直言 我一向来不善于文笔
我不知道如何把部落格写得唯美
但 我喜欢直接把我的想法和感受在这里说出来

要找到一个可以让自己很畅快地说心事的人很难
对着电脑写也许更舒服

学会了 当别人不在乎我们之间的友情时
我也不去珍惜这位朋友
友情跟爱情相似 是互相互对的关系
单方面的执著是没用的
我只能接受事实

当别人都把我当不存在时
也不要怪我为何要phantom
我就是这样 因为我不喜欢伪装自己
要是讨厌我这样也没关系 了解我的朋友会明白我在说什么

很想念那些在SEP/NOC的朋友
好像很多都是马来西亚军团的 呵呵
希望你们快点回来 不然我要寂寞死了
尤其是贝贝和振麟
我知道我是个不知如何表达情绪或者示好的人
不知道如何玩得很疯 偶尔会静静的
可是其实有你们在 心里还是很踏实的
我相信你们了解我就是这样的 而不是闷闷不乐
呵呵 也许习惯顾形象了吧

如果我有时光机 我也会选择同样的路
才能让我看清这世界是多么地残酷

Monday, September 27, 2010

当你的爱人问你爱他多久时,最浪漫,最好的回答不是 “一辈子"

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午后,慵懒的阳光洒落地面,
纵长路上,男孩骑车载着女孩.....
[你会爱我多久?]

女孩紧抱着男孩,侧着头在他耳边这样甜甜的问,
她知道,这个问题没有100分的答案。
带着娇嗔的轻笑,
她说:「给你一个说甜言蜜语的机会。」

男孩却认真的思考了起来。
趁着红灯停止的机会,他举起手比了个“一”
要女孩猜猜他的答案是什麽。
女孩想了一想,快乐的说:「一辈子!」

男孩笑了,并不是因为她答对,而是感染了她的喜悦。
绿灯了,男孩不仅趋车面对现实,也收敛起笑容,
轻轻的告诉女孩:
「我不会给这种答案的,这样的答案好到不真实了,像在说谎..再猜猜..」

女孩对男孩的说法很满意,於是歪者头继续想..
「一天?」
「呵呵,我们已经相恋两个月了,
一天、一星期、一个月这些都不成立喔!」
又是红灯,男孩握住女孩的手,微笑的看着她,

女孩窃笑,大声的说「不会是一瞬间吧?」
这个答案让男孩差点笑倒在马路上「当然不是啦!」
他一直深爱着女孩的幽默,深爱着女孩爽朗的笑容,
这个答案让他更紧握住女孩的手....
「一年吗?」曾经有过一年时间等待的承诺,
使得女孩对一年这个答案特别敏感。
男孩摇摇头,

他们之间已经不需要等待,只剩时间的考验...
「一百年好了,爱我一百年就够了。」
女孩说着,并表现着幸福的模样。
男孩说「一百年太短了吧,不够我爱你啊!」
甜言蜜语是男孩的专长,爱听甜言蜜语却是女孩的弱点....
女孩笑了,轻铃的笑声让男孩闯了红灯....

「想要听答案了吗?」男孩想说了,
而女孩想听「我会爱你多久呢?」
男孩手比着一说:
「一....一直到你不再爱我的那一天....」

女孩怔了……
一直到你不再爱我的那一天...

Thursday, September 23, 2010

[转载]当你 の他 不够爱你的时候...

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曾以为,最爱你的人不爱你是最痛苦的一件事情,
总以为,你不爱的人爱你是一件很痛苦的事情,
但...最痛苦的是,彼此是恋人,但他对你只有好感..

.
但却不够爱你...

他...

在你身边是一个这样的人,
你们彼此心中都对对方有好感,
你们很了解彼此,
当你的嘴角微微上扬时,
他就知道你在想些什么...
当你看这他的眼神时,
你也知道他在表达些什么...

你们就和其他情侣一样,

你们一起出门,
一起逛街,
一起看电影,
半夜聊天聊到三点钟,
一起分享着彼此的心事...

大家明明是情侣,

但却隔着一一道看不见的墙...

你想要拥抱的时 候,总会缺一个臂膀。

你想要亲吻的时 候,总会缺一张嘴唇。
你想要哭泣的时 候,总会缺一个肩膀。

你们是相爱的,但爱得很特别,爱得很另类

你们微笑的时候没有快乐,哭泣的时候没有悲伤,相信的时候也 没有承诺
但,你们的手是牵着的...
这感觉,必暧昧还来得痛苦...

好想摆脱这样的感觉,但总忍不住打电话给他

好想不要再理他了,但每当他没SMS你的时候,你的心情总会 不由自主的变得好糟
好想好想把他忘了,但无论走到哪里,总有着你和他的回忆...

直到这样一天,他/她终于离开了,

原因是他找到了“适合的人”,
这时,你哭了...
好想大声地哭出来,好想找一班知己出来倾述,
无奈恋爱时,你把时间都付出给了他,
和朋友们疏远了,无人相伴...
只好一个人躲在房内哭泣...
人生悲哀,莫过如此....

有所保留的那个 人,为自己预留了退路的那个人,随时准备全身而退的那个
人,
当他遇见更适合自己的人时,就会毫不犹豫地和你分手了,
当他不够爱你时,付出再多也是枉然,
始终相信...

"可以培养的是感情,不是爱情”


奈何天下有情人,有缘相恋,无缘相守...

如果再有重来一次的机会,相信还是会有许多人说“我愿意再来 一次!”
虽然知道最终的结局还是分手...

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Mischievous Kiss 韩版恶作剧之吻

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I have addicted to Korean version of recently. It made me recalled the memory and the past when I was watching Taiwanese version of Mischievous kiss, which has Joe Cheng and Ariel Lin as the main casts. Mischievous Kiss is my most favorite drama or comic ever. Those who are close to me or understand me know about it for sure, that's the main reason why I had fallen in love with Ariel Lin till now.

Details:
  • Title: 장난스런 키스 / Jangnanseureon Kiss
  • Also known as: Playful Kiss, Naughty Kiss, Mischievous Kiss
  • Genre: Romance, school
  • Episodes: 20
  • Broadcast Network: MBC
  • Broadcast period: 2010-Sep-01 to TBA
  • Air time: Wednesday & Thursday 21:55
  • Related TV shows: Itazura na Kiss, It Started with a Kiss
Sypnosis:

Based on the popular manga, Oh Ha Ni is a clumsy student who falls for the perfectionist, Baek Seung Jo. However, Seung Jo is indifferent towards her and rejects her love. When Ha Ni's house collapses, she and her father moves into his long-time friend's house. It turns out that Seung Jo is the friend's son and Ha Ni is given the opportunity to be near the guy she loves. Will she be able to move Seung Jo's heart?

Cast:

Mischievous Kiss with English subtitiles -- watch online [CLICK ME]


This drama has been done in the Taiwanese version and fans of this comic/anime knows the first part of this story isn't where the drama and interest occur. The interesting part of this story should begin after the first kiss. This story has a cult following like "Boys Over Flowers" and I believe it will hold it's own as long as they don deviate from the main story just to get ratings. The story is what it is. Two polar opposites. One a genus and the other borderline mentally handicap, each learning from the other, growing and developing within themselves what they lacked at first meeting. He is very stoic. It's not arrogance as much as assurity because he's always known what he wanted since infancy. She is a dreamer who never hoping for much because she don't think she deserves it because she's mentally lacking. She is starstruck with him because he is everything she wishes to be. It's a lighthearted love story and that's how it should be viewed.


I have never really watched the anime but I have read the comic when I was at age about 17-19. This is the best and most favorite I have ever seen. The second one is Boys Over Flowers. However, I still prefer to watch drama because I can feel close to the drama and getting addicted. It has became my motivation and the source of my happiness recently, when I was down or emotional, I'll watch it to eliminate my sorrow because this drama is pretty funny and interesting. I could find the excitement through watching Mischievous Kiss. However, Taiwanese Version is still the best in my heart, and the OST is the most perfect.

Mischievous Kiss Character Description
Baek Seung Jo

17 years old, a genius, reads 20,000 characters and memorizes 400 words in a minute.

He is member of “A Class” because of his grades, ranked in the top 10 in the nation and number 1 in the school, a title that he has never lost up to this point . . . not just brainy, not just gifted, but a “genius”.
But academics aren’t the only thing that he excels in - he is the type who can learn anything after only seeing it once. He has the looks, the skills, even the wealth of his parents . . . an all-around perfect guy.
He lives the epitome of a perfect life, giving him no reason to be jealous of anyone. However, there is one thing that Seung Jo doesn’t have: a dream. To Seung Jo, everything is dull, mere child’s play.

But one day, a girl from the “F Class” confesses to him.
Her looks are nothing special, and she doesn’t hesitate with her strange and wacky actions. Seung Jo is extremely popular with the female students at school, so he doesn’t give a second glance to this girl who is so fervently confessing to him.
His father tells him that a situation has come up and a family friend will be staying with them for a while. When he sees the daughter, however, he does a double take. The girl is none other than the one who confessed to him, F Class’s Oh Ha Ni.
Living under one roof with that girl . . . surprisingly, he doesn’t dislike this change in his daily life as much as he thought he would . . .

Oh Ha Ni

17 years old, member of the “F Class”, comprised of the students with the worst grades in the entire school.
Although she is far from intelligent, to her, happiness isn’t all about grades or looks. Even if she falls hundreds of times, like a roly-poly, she gets back up every time. Embarassing is not part of her vocabulary. Since her mother passed away a long time ago, her father, who owns a noodle restaurant, raised her from a very young age. Even though she grew up without a mother, she has always maintained a clear state of mind.

When she saw Baek Seung Jo, it was love at first sight.
Handsome face, long legs, a uniform worn so perfectly that even a model would be envious ~~
Although no one has been successful at capturing this perfect person’s heart, Ha Ni is determined to stick it out until the end.

The love letter that she presents to him after much struggle is coldly rejected, and at school, it becomes widely known as “Oh Ha Ni’s Humiliating Incident”.
To make matters worse, Ha Ni and her father soon find themselves with no place to stay due to some unfortunate happenings. HaNi’s father, who has agreed to stay with a friend for the time being, takes Ha Ni to their house. However that place . . . is none other than Seung Jo’s house!


Bong Joon Gu

17 years old, stupid, last place in the entire school, never embarrassed regardless of what the teacher says.
But he is talented in cooking and even earned the recognition of Ha Ni’s father
He feels as if he has a duty to protect Oh Ha Ni.
Depending on the situation, he can be forceful, but he is always devoted to Ha Ni.
For 10 years, he has remarkably looked only at Ha Ni and never even thought about other women.




Jung So Min is very suitable for this role, her acting skill is excellent and very natural. But Ariel Lin is still the best for sure especially for playing 湘琴's role. Both of them looks really dumb in the drama but in fact they are totally another person in the reality. Kim Hyun Joong's acting skill is still normal and do not have much impression to me. Korean version's 直树 which is Seung Jo in this drama is not that fierce and arrogant compared to the Taiwanese version's which is closer to the original comic's version. I like Hyun Joong's expression when he smiles sneakily without letting Ha Ni to see his excitement, she says 'Thank you Seung Jo oppa!', this scene is really touching me.

I am looking forward to every Thursday and Friday for the coming episodes. It has became my motivation to study for the whole week so that I could relax during weekend with watching my favorite drama , regardless who are the main casts, I would watch this drama because I really like the storyline. The author is really awesome!














Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Everything has came to an end

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空荡荡的房间 看着熟悉的照片
一切已成回忆 曾经承诺不让这一切成为回忆
但终究还是回到原点
打开那让人留恋的盒子 把所有的一切装进里面
东西收了 可是 回忆也跟着消失了吗

一年半前 原本自信满满天天快乐的我
在这段感情里 果然收获不少
开心的回忆也很多 难过的更让人痛苦
现在住着的地方 读书的地方 甚至任何一个在新加坡的地方
都有我们的回忆 这将会是我最大的考验

在一段感情里 让人最难过的最痛苦的是回忆
回忆很折磨人 也很可怕 走到每个角落都有他的影子
我最担心的是我的学业 和我最爱的家人
看到家人担心的样子 我会更心疼

人生就是如此 大家都在绕圈圈
绕完了一个圈又回到原点
我不想再加入这种游戏了
这是我人生中第一次遇到这样的苦涩
也让我明白爱一个人是什么滋味
也是如此的痛苦

我发誓 我不要再爱上任何一个人了
对我表白的人都是骗人的
一开始喜欢 几年后还是一样会回到原点
太多太多了 身边的男人都是这样

不要相信爱情 因为这世界上不会有所谓的真爱
更不会有永恒不变的爱情
爱自己 不要爱任何人
付出真心的人 注定是个输家 注定一辈子孤单 一个人难过哭泣

最害怕的是 黑夜的来临
临睡前的那一刻叫人感到恐惧

Monday, July 12, 2010

全新的我 是好是坏?

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生活
很规律 早睡早起
跑步 瑜伽 水果蔬菜排毒餐
护肤 面膜 感觉很充实
充实中带一点平淡
就像咖啡一样
虽然苦涩 可是总是会有一点甜
一个人坐在客厅里 时钟一分一秒地走
按着手中的remote control
突然觉得充实的生活中其实也很空虚
夜深人静的四周 顿时会让人觉得寂寞
以后再也看不到电话屏幕突然显示“晚安”的信息
一个人 独立 成熟 开放 坚强
那些都是我应该学习的

朋友
在心里 家人永远是第一
现在对我而言 朋友是第二
对朋友的信任和信心慢慢建立起来
虽然偶尔还是会质疑 但是我会勇敢
勇敢地去建立朋友之间的信任
最近的生活完全围绕着朋友
朋友的陪伴让我度过许多瓶颈
有你们的疼爱 我觉得我是幸福的

感情
感觉自己变成另个人
不知道这是好还是坏
最近回想起从很久以前的感情到现在的回忆
我做了对自己好的结论
那就是 凡事不能太投入不能奋不顾身不顾一切
花心 是因为不敢付出真心
那句话我觉得很有意思
从一部戏看到的PS
害怕会再次失去自己 不想再难过
最近不知道这些桃花是好还是坏
可是 已经没有多余的真心可以付出了
很想花心 可是却做不到
老了吧 已经没有力气再去想感情的事
或许是失去自信 觉得他们的喜欢都不会是真心的
爱 没有永恒的 男人 都是三分钟热度
付出真心的人 是输家
越在乎的人 越得不到想要的真爱
谢谢你 让我有了现在的想法 也成长了许多
学会了体谅 理智 开放
一个人住在心里的感觉很不好受吧?
但或许有一天 会有一个真的能让你忘记她的女生出现
到时要好好把握 不要再伤害任何女生了
我呢 会好好珍惜现在的机会
但是 如果还是看不到未来 我会理智的作决定
最后的疼爱 是手放开
对于另一个他 或许我们当好朋友
一直关心彼此 以朋友的身份互相联络
这样 应该会更好吧?
毕竟这样我们才能维持到永远的关系
因为 我不再相信这世上有所谓的真爱
即使有 我也不再相信真爱会是永恒
有了自由 才会有爱 真的是这样吗?
努力了 累过了 哭过了 心痛了
是时候 过着自己想要的生活

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