我是一片叶子

也许我注定当一辈子的叶子。。。

一片飘浮不定的叶子

一片想永远像个被宠坏的小孩的叶子

一片没有着落的叶子

日子久了 叶子就从树上飘落下来

一瞬间 就被抵抗不了的风带走

烦

不懂不懂我不懂!!

I don't like ppl keep asking me to decide but at the same time those ppl can't confirm once I make decision!

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下个星期一开工了，好怕啊！！

Should I give up?

"Aiyah Malaysian hor come singapore to earn singapore money then keep changing job one..."

"your English so terrible, success? haha this is Singapore leh...you must be able to speak English only can make a success ok, if you can not speak good English like us, you'll never be able to make a success in your life"

"why don't you go back to your own country and work?"

"3 years bond? haha..dun care lah, nobody will care one, just go back to your country"

"how long have u been looking for a job? why still haven't got a job? must be nobody wanna hire you lah..."

"don't be so arrogant..don't always make assumption..if you cannot make profit for company, why shud we hire you? we dun need someone who is liable.."

"Ask a question!" then I ask lor.. you know what he answered me?

"I dunno! ask another one." he gave me a super irritating look when he said he dunno...damn it! then i asked lor.

he said "I don't want to answer this." F*** off lah!

he keeps repeating this for 15 mins... dun wanna answer me then why did he ask me to ask a question in the first place?

I am proud to be a Malaysian! so? you tot i like to suffer in your country?

I have 3 years bond to your government.. who gonna pay my debt? you ar? f**ker!

"why dun you join your fren's company?Must be they dun want to hire u la..haha"

laugh what? very funny meh?

Your English very good meh..SINGLISH also ma..

you can earn money so what...you have such a poor personality!

I know I dun have ability to earn money.. but at least I am not that inhuman as you

and please stop staring at me with your disgusting eyes!

I told him "I dun have any questions to ask anymore as I dun feel like joining your company and earn money for you!"

不要用你的狗眼看人低！

today super sien lah... when I came back, I just locked myself up in my room and cry out loud.

Im not fragile, it's just I really beh tahan lah..I have to do stg to vent my anger.

I hate to be an adult

I hate getting the lives of adults， I became more and more resistant to the lives of adults

Perhaps someone right， working life is so terrible

If we are busy every day and even no time to send messages to each other...

Even a message of "Have you eaten?" also got no time to send then our life is how horrible

We are like robots, our lives are controlled by work and money

No passion, no time to love, not even have our own private spaces

We lose that impulse to want to embrace the lover

Get up to go to work every day and then go home after work done

Doing our own thing and then sleep, repeating the same life every day...

Sometimes I wonder what is the reason people live? what is the meaning of living?

For an example, when the other party suddenly issued the invitation of dating to me

I will feel happy over this trivial matter and then immediately prepare everything for the short date

But the next second I saw his message that he got appointment with clients suddenly

I instantly felt disappointed and upset...

But I know as his partner, I should be understanding, be more mature too

It's just that his working hour is TOO flexible and abnormal

This is the adult's life

BUT I prefer to be a child

A Penny for My Thoughts

I feel myself sooooooo useless

I did try my best!

But the life here is damn stressed!

I must survive!

Others are soooo busy..busy busy busy everyday

I feel my life lack of something

but I can't think of it when I am jobless right?

can't! can't request so much!

Must be I got plenty of time

so my thinking starts to run wild

MUST BE!

Well people, you are right.

I feel bored when I were alone

Aren't you the same?

I don't like to tell... to say out

Cuz if I do this, I feel myself repeat the kid's behavior again

again again and again...

I did it twice in front of him ady

no more, pls! No more!

Hais I can stay focus.. Will I?

I can be strong... Can I?

Well I hope I can be firm.

But guys, I know that...

Guys tend to request their gals to be more understanding...improve themselves...this and that

Well I remember I told someone about it before...

"I can become the person you hope for..I can give u plenty of time,can ignore you,can feel nothing when you don't have time to accompany me.. But that will be the day when I'm not longer loving you...Then I can do it naturally without making myself suffer and endure..."

In the meanwhile, I can improve myself..

Nope! It's..I MUST improve myself.

No one can guarantee what will happen in the future...

A reminder for myself: Don't fall in love with someone DEEPLY before he/she loves you. Commit it when he/she ready to marry you.

何去何从

这世界太残酷太可怕了
办公室工作的地方 与想象的差太大了
幸运的就能和同事上司合作得很好
我 算是倒霉的那个吗？
还是我真的不够聪明

这两个月虽然很短
可是却是我生命中最抹不掉的伤痛
学到很多 也看到很多所有人的本性
昨晚一整夜都睡不着 没睡好
今早吃了药头很晕眩

有钱就可以欺负人 这个世界真现实
我只能忍 因为上司会不给我薪水
做了两个月连个合约都没有
现在让我走 又要把合约改
这是什么公司啊！
我没有像政府投诉已经很好了
要让我走还要大声跟我说话
我很好欺负吗！

每个月还有那么多债要还
还要缴房租和生活费用
又这样耍我！
是要逼死我才开心是吗！

6 things to think about before entering a relationship

I just saw a meaningful article, share with you all here:

When you click with someone and think to yourself that maybe this person could be different from the others you have met on dates, you most likely want to take things further and let it develop into a relationship. Whether you have been single for a short time or for as long as you can remember, there are some things you should ask yourself before getting into a relationship to make sure that it works out. Here are some pre-relationship questions for you to think about.

Ask yourself whether you are really ready for a relationship. If you have just come out of a difficult relationship, you're likely to have a lot of emotional baggage which you need to deal with beforehand. Similarly you don't want to get into a relationship for the sake of it because you're bored of being single or because you want to make someone jealous.

Ask yourself whether you really know the person. Yes, you may have learnt a lot about them from going on dates together, but you need to go a little deeper; find out who they really are. Find out whether they are compatible, or whether friends know them. The last thing you want is to get into a relationship and find out the person is a nutcase, has big financial difficulties or is emotionally unavailable.

Ask yourself whether you are being practical. It's not going to last if you don't have the same goals or they have traits which you don't like. They may be good looking, but don't let lust cloud your judgement and brush the negative things aside. If you want different things in life or have different goals then it's unlikely to work.

Ask yourself whether you have the same values and morals. A relationship has a better chance of surviving if the couple have the same core beliefs and values, as people's actions and decisions are based on these. Despite the saying "opposites attract", this isn't necessarily the case, and you are likely to find yourselves at loggerheads and clashing.

Ask yourself whether this is a positive thing as a relationship should make you happy, plaster a grin across your face, a glow in your cheeks and a spring in your step. It should be something that adds value to your life and be a positive thing. Don't let someone bring in negativity to your life or be negative about you.

Ask yourself whether you trust this person. While trust is something that a person earns and grows over time, it is the basic of every relationship. Do you trust this person you want to get into a relationship with? Do you feel safe with them? Do you trust that they will treat you right? Having this basic trust will allow the relationship to flourish.