Saturday, July 30, 2011

改变

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最近听到了很多故事
我在想 我好像真的变了好多
每个人的想法会随着岁月改变
现在我满脑子想的都是我的债务
都是工作和金钱
老实说 我很需要钱 来还我的贷款 利息好高啊
就快要被这些烦恼的债务给窒息了
以前都只想着玩 购物 开心就好
现在我很多负担
不止要赚钱还债 还希望可以有储蓄
女人 总有一天要嫁人吧?
除非以后的老公是百万富翁
否则我个人认为 身为女人还是应该有所贡献
所谓的贡献是在财务上 这样才像一个家
不过当然我也想轻轻松松过生活
但是我已经注定背负着一身债
我能做的不再是埋怨 而是努力改变我的命运
我体会到女人到了工作阶段会变得现实的感觉
尤其是每天都不能吃饱
或者每天啃面包和饼干
我很珍惜米饭 只要那么一餐有米饭我就很开心!
几乎天天都在做兼职
一个是freelance的 另外呢我也开始教补习了
已经有三个学生了!每天都好累哦!
唉 如何改变我的命运?
努力 我一定要努力 我必须忍耐 熬过每一天

其实看着热恋的情侣 当然会羡慕
看着别人可以光明正大地交往 感觉很欣慰
很多情侣喜欢在facebook示爱之类的
虽然可能让人觉得很做作很幼稚
可是至少是很真心的 是一种情趣 不觉得吗?
但 当然也不是必要的
毕竟我明白 真心还是最重要的
不需要让全世界都知道
彼此真心相爱就足够了
希望大家都能找到属于自己的幸福
也希望幸福不再是短暂
我变得自尊心很强 不晓得为什么
变得不敢表现自己的感受
害怕 害怕说出口的话 想知道的答案 并不是自己所盼望的
所以 宁可不问 什么都不在乎 应该就不会像以前那样伤痕累累吧

我明白 很多人都不知道事情的来龙去脉
都只是在乎表面的结果 很多人都不在乎过程
我只能说 我们都在过程中学到了宝贵的一课
更难能可贵的是 通过曾经交往的过程
我们更清楚彼此要走的路和幸福
这一点 是非常重要的
回忆抹不掉 偶尔还是会想起曾经 还是会感叹可惜
但破镜并不能重圆 当彼此都找到了自己的路
一旦选择了 就无法再回头

我只能说 我现在过得很好 因为你 我长大了
虽然还是有很多东西需要让我学习
但至少我比以前看的世界更多了

只是偶尔还是会因为友情而烦恼
这一生 常常会遭到女性朋友讨厌
为什么?我也很想知道。
我什么都没做 但 这种事情还是常常发生

不谈那个了 知心好友有几个就好了 不求多
现在呢 最重要的是 努力赚钱 养自己和还债
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
每天都在想如何赚到更多的$$$!!!
其他的事 就交给命运吧

Friday, July 22, 2011

瓶颈

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Today I received a call from a job agency.
Her attitude is really jialat!
"What job are u currently looking for? HR? If u wanna do HR you must have a diploma in HRM u know? Your degree is chemistry, what area do u want to go? Hospital can or not? Healthcare? I don't think so ler, yours is chemistry ler.. Huh? Admin? Admin is for O Level, u r over-qualified u know! Lab Tech also cannot la, lab tech is for diploma or ITE holder ler, the salary must be below 2000, u r over-qualified! u study chemistry ar? what job can u do ar? u can do what ar?"
She sounds like my degree is useless!
"What can you do ar?" If I know what can I do then what's the point for you to be a job agent? Idiot!
Even if I know what industry I prefer to go but the world is cruel, it doesn't mean that I can definitely get what I want...
People might say as long as u know what u want, fight for it and u will definitely get it! I agreed at the 1st place, but now I think all of these are shits.
I am really quite demotivated now.
I have a local university degree, but I am Malaysian, I am not a SPR so ended up my qualification is still the same as foreigner?
What's wrong with Malaysian? Idiot, you will definitely be a successful man if you can speak English very well? So what? Idiot like shit, when your attitude is bad like hell, you are just a shit to me, you mean nothing!
I have been trying so hard, not only me actually, there are so many Malaysian friends with NUS Science degree hard to get a job currently.
If u study science, u must be a scientist meh?
If u study Design, u must be a designer?
All are just nonsense!

I know shedding tears will not help anything.
But i was too angry and depressed just now right after I hang up the phone.
I hate the feeling of being looked down by locals.
Well, I know there are still some locals nice to foreigners.

I think I just stick to my previous plan bah.
It's not the right time to change line right now or aim for my dream job.
Dream is always unrealistic.
I think I just simply do a job with lower starting pay and teach tuition to earn for my monthly rent.
After working for few years, as long as I am a S pass holder, I can apply for SPR anytime, it's just whether I can successfully obtain it, it'll depend on luck and also the interview bah.

Other friends also have to start paying the tuition fee loan for about 17000.
But I have to pay almost their doubles!
I have study loan and computer loan also.
It'll be $31100 in total!!
and the interest is 4.8%!GG!
How could I survive with such heavy debts!

I dun think I can save money for my future plan now.
I have to settle for my own financial problem such as monthly rent, tuition fee loan, study loan, computer loan, living fees, electricity and water fees, internet fees, etc.
It's hard to survive in a foreign country.
Well I could only complain here without bothering anyone.
Job! I need a job!!

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

July 2011

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跟大家报告一下我在7月份的动向!哈哈!
上个星期 佳宜和淑芳来新加坡找我
哈哈 这是我在Scape前面喝的贡茶!=D



佳宜宝贝=D



淑芳宝贝=P



好想试试这个Nasi Lemak Burger哦!好特别。在Cineleisure后面的Scape^___^



前几天去Clementi Mall见很久不见的朋友
我喜欢去Fish&Co!三文鱼好好吃!顶!!!



我喜欢圆的那个!哈哈。它是热的,流出来的巧克力浆也是热的!超好吃^__^
在Starbucks买的,才$6.50。
另外一个是普通的巧克力蛋糕,$4.50。




不知道还有机会那么空闲地去享受吗?
现在的我呢 对我的人生充满了目标
以前只想得过且过
现在 我真的很想靠自己的努力赚大钱
我知道 那真的很不简单
毕竟我读的学历和我想走的路截然不同
但 我还是想试试看
如果到了8月还是找不到
那我就暂时做别的不喜欢的工作吧
唉 加油!

Commencement 2011

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Yay! Finally I have graduated!!! I reached in University Cultural Centre very early that day.. Then I took some photos with my family first... But it's such a pity that my elder brother and sister could not make it due to working. Well I was still very happy! Thanks for those who came to my commencement cuz I realized YOU are the one who really appreciate me as your friend, I was glad. I was also lucky cuz I have a bunch of nice chem gang! haha.. They are funny sometimes but we went through thick and thin..I miss the days we shared in MRB T_______T
Well, I have been busy these few weeks... I am still working hard to look for the job I like...Ganbateh Ariel!!







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