"Aiyah Malaysian hor come singapore to earn singapore money then keep changing job one..."
"your English so terrible, success? haha this is Singapore leh...you must be able to speak English only can make a success ok, if you can not speak good English like us, you'll never be able to make a success in your life"
"why don't you go back to your own country and work?"
"3 years bond? haha..dun care lah, nobody will care one, just go back to your country"
"how long have u been looking for a job? why still haven't got a job? must be nobody wanna hire you lah..."
"don't be so arrogant..don't always make assumption..if you cannot make profit for company, why shud we hire you? we dun need someone who is liable.."
"Ask a question!" then I ask lor.. you know what he answered me?
"I dunno! ask another one." he gave me a super irritating look when he said he dunno...damn it! then i asked lor.
he said "I don't want to answer this." F*** off lah!
he keeps repeating this for 15 mins... dun wanna answer me then why did he ask me to ask a question in the first place?
I am proud to be a Malaysian! so? you tot i like to suffer in your country?
I have 3 years bond to your government.. who gonna pay my debt? you ar? f**ker!
"why dun you join your fren's company?Must be they dun want to hire u la..haha"
laugh what? very funny meh?
Your English very good meh..SINGLISH also ma..
you can earn money so what...you have such a poor personality!
I know I dun have ability to earn money.. but at least I am not that inhuman as you
and please stop staring at me with your disgusting eyes!
I told him "I dun have any questions to ask anymore as I dun feel like joining your company and earn money for you!"
today super sien lah... when I came back, I just locked myself up in my room and cry out loud.
Im not fragile, it's just I really beh tahan lah..I have to do stg to vent my anger.
Cuz if I do this, I feel myself repeat the kid's behavior again
again again and again...
I did it twice in front of him ady
no more, pls! No more!
Hais I can stay focus.. Will I?
I can be strong... Can I?
Well I hope I can be firm.
But guys, I know that...
Guys tend to request their gals to be more understanding...improve themselves...this and that
Well I remember I told someone about it before...
"I can become the person you hope for..I can give u plenty of time,can ignore you,can feel nothing when you don't have time to accompany me.. But that will be the day when I'm not longer loving you...Then I can do it naturally without making myself suffer and endure..."
In the meanwhile, I can improve myself..
Nope! It's..I MUST improve myself.
No one can guarantee what will happen in the future...
A reminder for myself: Don't fall in love with someone DEEPLY before he/she loves you. Commit it when he/she ready to marry you.
I just saw a meaningful article, share with you all here:
When you click with someone and think to yourself that maybe this person could be different from the others you have met on dates, you most likely want to take things further and let it develop into a relationship. Whether you have been single for a short time or for as long as you can remember, there are some things you should ask yourself before getting into a relationship to make sure that it works out. Here are some pre-relationship questions for you to think about.
Ask yourself whether you are really ready for a relationship. If you have just come out of a difficult relationship, you're likely to have a lot of emotional baggage which you need to deal with beforehand. Similarly you don't want to get into a relationship for the sake of it because you're bored of being single or because you want to make someone jealous.
Ask yourself whether you really know the person. Yes, you may have learnt a lot about them from going on dates together, but you need to go a little deeper; find out who they really are. Find out whether they are compatible, or whether friends know them. The last thing you want is to get into a relationship and find out the person is a nutcase, has big financial difficulties or is emotionally unavailable.
Ask yourself whether you are being practical. It's not going to last if you don't have the same goals or they have traits which you don't like. They may be good looking, but don't let lust cloud your judgement and brush the negative things aside. If you want different things in life or have different goals then it's unlikely to work.
Ask yourself whether you have the same values and morals. A relationship has a better chance of surviving if the couple have the same core beliefs and values, as people's actions and decisions are based on these. Despite the saying "opposites attract", this isn't necessarily the case, and you are likely to find yourselves at loggerheads and clashing.
Ask yourself whether this is a positive thing as a relationship should make you happy, plaster a grin across your face, a glow in your cheeks and a spring in your step. It should be something that adds value to your life and be a positive thing. Don't let someone bring in negativity to your life or be negative about you.
Ask yourself whether you trust this person. While trust is something that a person earns and grows over time, it is the basic of every relationship. Do you trust this person you want to get into a relationship with? Do you feel safe with them? Do you trust that they will treat you right? Having this basic trust will allow the relationship to flourish.
Sometimes I really envy others
Although many things can not be compared
But recently there have been a very strong feeling
I wish I could like a normal person
But not everything can be arbitrary
Must think of the consequences and also many, many concerns
Do not know if I'm too sensitive
Do not know whether it is the little things
I think I can easily upset recently
Maybe I compare the present and past
In fact, it seems no big thing
But always felt something was lacking
Entered the work phase
Lifestyle has changed
Everyone has their own busy
We must always work until we grow old
Now grown up
I feel the world has changed
When a person becomes busy
He/She will become bad-tempered
Is that true?
I only know that when I busy
I feel depressed
I feel not enough time
There are many things that endless
There are many things to do
No time to think so much
I can only tell myself constantly
Efforts should be made continuously
I must focus on career
And plan for the future
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Today is a sucky day to me! I was so dumb! How could I take bus from opposite direction to Toa Pah Yoh then I have to take the same bus again from Toa Pah Yoh and back to my house in Jurong East! I wasted 3 hours for the bus journey! 3 hours! I can go to KL already!
Then this morning I went for interview When I wanted to go bk home, I walked to the back of the company I tot there was a bus stop with shorter distance BUT ended up i spent half an hour to walk back to the same bus stop! AND i was walking under freaking hot sun! I was sweaty and frustrated!
Hais! I'm unlucky recently! Why ler? I also duno! I really think that I shud get an Iphone It's damn useful especially for me this kind of blur queen who dun have sense of direction! SOOOOOOOO IDIOT!! If I have Iphone, i can check where I am and where is the nearest bus stop/MRT etc. I can check whether I am walking on the right path too. AND I can play some games when I am waiting or whatever. BUT MONEY is the main issue! I still have to earn money and save it for buying an Iphone... and also paying the debts
On the way from Toa Pah Yoh back to my house, I had a deep thought. SIGH... Maybe I am good in hiding my inner feelings? Otherwise how come most of the time ppl cannot tell how depress I am Well There are always some friends and family concern about me I am grateful and also have some lucks as I have such a wonderful family
Family become my mentally support. Sometimes I really feel like giving up Give up every thing, give up myself and even my life But whenever come across these issues, I would think of my lovely family. After that I'll have motivation to move on
Most of my friends have found their jobs They all started to busy with their career life What am I doing? Why I'm still jobless? I finally understand why there is someone told me he also went through this kind of tough period and it's good when there is another person accompany him went through it and he was seriously appreciate it
Well sometimes I might have some wild thinking but it just crossed my mind for a few seconds cuz I know it's wrong to do that I admit I really need money urgently! But I'm glad that I'm still rational
Hais I hate thinking and troubling over the same issue everyday It's tiring! However I could only say good luck to myself once again
Today I received a call from a job agency. Her attitude is really jialat! "What job are u currently looking for? HR? If u wanna do HR you must have a diploma in HRM u know? Your degree is chemistry, what area do u want to go? Hospital can or not? Healthcare? I don't think so ler, yours is chemistry ler.. Huh? Admin? Admin is for O Level, u r over-qualified u know! Lab Tech also cannot la, lab tech is for diploma or ITE holder ler, the salary must be below 2000, u r over-qualified! u study chemistry ar? what job can u do ar? u can do what ar?" She sounds like my degree is useless! "What can you do ar?" If I know what can I do then what's the point for you to be a job agent? Idiot! Even if I know what industry I prefer to go but the world is cruel, it doesn't mean that I can definitely get what I want... People might say as long as u know what u want, fight for it and u will definitely get it! I agreed at the 1st place, but now I think all of these are shits. I am really quite demotivated now. I have a local university degree, but I am Malaysian, I am not a SPR so ended up my qualification is still the same as foreigner? What's wrong with Malaysian? Idiot, you will definitely be a successful man if you can speak English very well? So what? Idiot like shit, when your attitude is bad like hell, you are just a shit to me, you mean nothing! I have been trying so hard, not only me actually, there are so many Malaysian friends with NUS Science degree hard to get a job currently. If u study science, u must be a scientist meh? If u study Design, u must be a designer? All are just nonsense!
I know shedding tears will not help anything. But i was too angry and depressed just now right after I hang up the phone. I hate the feeling of being looked down by locals. Well, I know there are still some locals nice to foreigners.
I think I just stick to my previous plan bah. It's not the right time to change line right now or aim for my dream job. Dream is always unrealistic. I think I just simply do a job with lower starting pay and teach tuition to earn for my monthly rent. After working for few years, as long as I am a S pass holder, I can apply for SPR anytime, it's just whether I can successfully obtain it, it'll depend on luck and also the interview bah.
Other friends also have to start paying the tuition fee loan for about 17000. But I have to pay almost their doubles! I have study loan and computer loan also. It'll be $31100 in total!! and the interest is 4.8%!GG! How could I survive with such heavy debts!
I dun think I can save money for my future plan now. I have to settle for my own financial problem such as monthly rent, tuition fee loan, study loan, computer loan, living fees, electricity and water fees, internet fees, etc. It's hard to survive in a foreign country. Well I could only complain here without bothering anyone. Job! I need a job!!
Yay! Finally I have graduated!!! I reached in University Cultural Centre very early that day.. Then I took some photos with my family first... But it's such a pity that my elder brother and sister could not make it due to working. Well I was still very happy! Thanks for those who came to my commencement cuz I realized YOU are the one who really appreciate me as your friend, I was glad. I was also lucky cuz I have a bunch of nice chem gang! haha.. They are funny sometimes but we went through thick and thin..I miss the days we shared in MRB T_______T Well, I have been busy these few weeks... I am still working hard to look for the job I like...Ganbateh Ariel!!
We celebrated father's day and had a big feast just now. 福州羹 药材纸包鸡 麦片苏东 娘惹尼罗红 砂煲芋头排骨 招牌琵琶豆腐 Haha We ate a lot! I like the food very much!
I took a photo of myself sneakily when we were waiting for the food.Heehee... Hais. Another unfruitful day again! I got some calls from companies but it failed cuz I'm not SPR or Singaporean. Suddenly I feel that my life sucks to the max!
Ariel, smile smile and smileee!! I can only keep working hard on looking for part time/temp/perm job~ Jiayouuuu!
Lastly, Happy Father's Day! I Love You Daddy<3<3<3