Today is a sucky day to me!
I was so dumb!
How could I take bus from opposite direction to Toa Pah Yoh
then I have to take the same bus again from Toa Pah Yoh and back to my house in Jurong East!
I wasted 3 hours for the bus journey! 3 hours! I can go to KL already!
Then this morning I went for interview
When I wanted to go bk home, I walked to the back of the company
I tot there was a bus stop with shorter distance
BUT ended up i spent half an hour to walk back to the same bus stop!
AND i was walking under freaking hot sun!
I was sweaty and frustrated!
Hais! I'm unlucky recently!
Why ler? I also duno!
I really think that I shud get an Iphone
It's damn useful especially for me this kind of blur queen who dun have sense of direction!
If I have Iphone, i can check where I am and where is the nearest bus stop/MRT etc.
I can check whether I am walking on the right path too.
AND I can play some games when I am waiting or whatever.
BUT MONEY is the main issue!
I still have to earn money and save it for buying an Iphone...
and also paying the debts
On the way from Toa Pah Yoh back to my house,
I had a deep thought.
SIGH... Maybe I am good in hiding my inner feelings?
Otherwise how come most of the time ppl cannot tell how depress I am
Well There are always some friends and family concern about me
I am grateful and also have some lucks as I have such a wonderful family
Family become my mentally support.
Sometimes I really feel like giving up
Give up every thing, give up myself and even my life
But whenever come across these issues,
I would think of my lovely family.
After that I'll have motivation to move on
Most of my friends have found their jobs
They all started to busy with their career life
What am I doing? Why I'm still jobless?
I finally understand why there is someone told me he also went through this kind of tough period and it's good when there is another person accompany him went through it and he was seriously appreciate it
Well sometimes I might have some wild thinking
but it just crossed my mind for a few seconds
cuz I know it's wrong to do that
I admit I really need money urgently!
But I'm glad that I'm still rational
Hais I hate thinking and troubling over the same issue everyday
However I could only say good luck to myself once again
9 months ago