A Penny for My Thoughts

I feel myself sooooooo useless

I did try my best!

But the life here is damn stressed!

I must survive!

Others are soooo busy..busy busy busy everyday

I feel my life lack of something

but I can't think of it when I am jobless right?

can't! can't request so much!

Must be I got plenty of time

so my thinking starts to run wild

MUST BE!

Well people, you are right.

I feel bored when I were alone

Aren't you the same?

I don't like to tell... to say out

Cuz if I do this, I feel myself repeat the kid's behavior again

again again and again...

I did it twice in front of him ady

no more, pls! No more!

Hais I can stay focus.. Will I?

I can be strong... Can I?

Well I hope I can be firm.

But guys, I know that...

Guys tend to request their gals to be more understanding...improve themselves...this and that

Well I remember I told someone about it before...

"I can become the person you hope for..I can give u plenty of time,can ignore you,can feel nothing when you don't have time to accompany me.. But that will be the day when I'm not longer loving you...Then I can do it naturally without making myself suffer and endure..."

In the meanwhile, I can improve myself..

Nope! It's..I MUST improve myself.

No one can guarantee what will happen in the future...

A reminder for myself: Don't fall in love with someone DEEPLY before he/she loves you. Commit it when he/she ready to marry you.