Stop to be a thinker!

Aikss... Am I thinking too much?
Ya, I agree that woman is a thinker.
I don't know what the hell am I doing recently.
Sense of security? Worrying to be the foolish one?
Or all of the things are just a dream?
I don't know. Let the fate decides my path.
I should think before I saying anything.
Aikss.. I feel embarrassed of myself.
I should not have that thought.
What the hell am I looking and hoping for?
What the hell am I thinking?
Let nature takes its course.
Ariel, U must study hard for your last semester!
1 more month to my first paper.
Stressed!! I must go to library to study from tmrw onwards!
And stop to be a thinker!

Did I make the right decision?

Finally, I have made the decision which I should make it earlier.

I do not know whether such decision is good for both of us

But I can be sure that

we will definitely can't even be friends anymore

if I drag it even longer

I thought I will always be the one who love him more than he does

I thought he will always be the one

who decide whether our r/s can carry on

But I was wrong

Sometimes, a person will get tired after sacrificed

and done too much for a r/s

Both of us had changed a lot for each other

I will thank him...

If not him, there won't be such a better me writing my thoughts here

If not him, I would never knew

what is so-called to be considerate and mature

I'll never regret to be together with him =)

Well, I still not sure whether we will patch up in the future

Cuz I believe nothing is predictable

I would never knew I will end up being together with whom

But I must get used to a single life

I do not worry that I have to be independent

I just worry I will be lonely

I must learn how not to be lonely while being alone =)

I don't know whether I made the right decision

or doing the right thing

Well, I hope I could find my way back to a normal life

I want to be happy and blessful

Friends, yes, thanks goodness that I possess u all in my life

Thanks for being there whenever I down

or encountered any setbacks

I'll cherish u all more than I did each time

Love u all <3

I wish I could graduate smoothly this semester

No regrets anymore in my life!

Aikss... I must study hard

Pupu, u also must jiayou k?

Hmm... focus more on your career first

Put aside all other personal affairs

I hope I can do the same too

We jiayou together^_^

Keep in touch!

This is the only thing I can do for you

You are right.

If I repeat the same mistake, I'll be the foolish pig.

Life is getting sucker...

Well, I'm not gonna make any more regrets in my life.

I need time to think what gives me the best.

"Sorry" is the only word I can say.

Any decision I make would hurt anyone.

That's why I do not want to make a decision that

make myself regret and hurt others.

Those memories u gave were wonderful

and I am not gonna to forget any part of it.

Time heals and proves everything.

Making love out of nothing at all.

The only thing I can do for you is to reduce the pain you suffer to the minimum.

I do not deserve anything, seriously, I feel myself sucks.

I was too selfish.

I want the full moon, shining stars and relaxing sea appear to me right now.

That's all what I am thinking now.

Be brave, be strong, be happy.

NO77 2011 - C-tube_ JabbaCockees.mp4

I don't know what the hell am I doing

这个学期特别懒惰 也特别爱玩
也许是因为最后一个学期了吧
对于要出社会做工产生了些压力
做工以后也没有多少时间可以做自己想做的事

最近的自己好像回到了中五毕业后的我
一直定不下来做事情 脑海一直不断地想做别的事 无法专心读书
好怕会毕不了业 真的

最近也发生了一些事情 让我也在质疑自己
也许朋友说得对 自己做的时候觉得没什么
可是发生在自己身上的话会很生气
到底我在干什么

加油吧 暂时别去理这些事情了
I should behave myself
做自己应该做的事
人生只有那么一次 不能让自己后悔
读书时间到！！ Focus!!!

A game hurts a person for her lifetime

They played a game, just for the fun in short while, but whatever they did could hurt a person forever. I could not imagine it. They claimed themselves westernized, mature, no longer a kid, but in normal ppl's view of point, their behavior is like a kid who is still playful and never spare a thought for others. Gals, please protect yourself and dun let guys to take advantage of u, when they kissed u but not loving u, what's the point to be so happy abt it? Do u really think U r that charming and pretty? It's too silly.

Forgive me if I say something harshly, cuz u will never know how painful and hurt is my heart, and such wound will always in my heart, will not recover anymore. U guys might think conservative is childish, but ur behavior is much more childish than us. Think maturely, what have u done in your life? do u plan for ur future?

I wish I do not see those gals anymore who were playing Truth or Dare that night, and for guys also. I really disappointed in u all. I need some time to get over it.

My bf..is really damn playful... no matter how i tolerate and give in, he will do worse than what he did b4.. this time i gave warning, cuz i have my dignity. If he do second time, then i'll get out of his life. No more being frens, no more talking, no more meeting each other though I love him so much. Before u doing, think, u rather choose to let me leave u forever, or u choose to have fun just for a while with the gals u dun have feelings at all. I have to let him know the importance and seriousness of this matter.

Something cannot be played randomly just for the sake of ur satisfaction in a short while. U have spoilt ur image and betrayed the trust I give to u. Just imagine ur another half did it to u, what do u think?

Guys and Gals, dun do it just for the sake of fun, think, when u doing it, how many ppl is shedding tears and crying for few days and night, how many ppl get hurt, how many couples broke up just for ur childish behavior, how many ppl can get over it?

I hate u all... U all make my life sucks.. Give me some time to get over it.

To my bf... no more second chance.. and pls forgive me to write it here, i like to blog abt my emotion. Think before u doing anything. Be a mature man.

背叛的感受

信任 一夜之间就毁了
以为给对方自由是彼此会快乐的方式
可是我错了 思想的不同 让彼此在一起都觉得辛苦

为何有些人觉得游戏中所做的一切都可以被原谅？
做的同时 为何不想想自己是什么身份 有个人会心碎

重点是 事情发生了 却还理直气壮 并觉得自己没有错
反而说我太敏感 说一切只是游戏
这样的行为是你们可以当游戏玩的吗
那群朋友在我心中的印象也全毁了 不再相信你们
为什么女生也要玩呢 怎么那么不爱护自己？
男人只是为了吃豆腐 然后觉得很好玩
女人呢？为了什么而玩？难道她们自己也喜欢被吃豆腐吗？
我不明白。如果有一天我跟你们的男朋友发生事情
你会怎么想？有想过我的感受吗？还当我是朋友吗？

跟我男朋友做那些事情 我以后该怎么面对你们 最好不要让我看到你们
what's the point of playing such a meaningless game?
每次说自己成熟 说我小孩子
你这样的行为更让我觉得你还没长大 还没玩够
几时才可以稳重一些？好好找工作吧！

想法不同 让彼此都很辛苦 是什么让我们坚持到现在？
是爱？还是只是一种需要？连我自己也不知道答案。
感觉就好像在遇到更适合的人之前两人在一起看看
是真的这样吗？在一起的感觉呢？

我给了很多的自由 到头来得到的不是他珍惜我的好
而是让他做了让我伤心的事 而他却一点歉意也没有
我难过 是因为他在我的心目中已经把形象给毁了
彼此之间好不容易建立起来的信任 也毁于一旦
我无法再相信他给我的爱情 他也无法给我承诺
他说无法保证以后不会再重犯
听到这句话的时候 我的心碎得没有残留
保证不做那些背叛我的事情 有这么难吗？
那种游戏有多么重要？看到我心痛伤心都还是坚持吗？
爱情 为什么要存在 我的真名天子到底又在哪里